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Lately, I've been pondering two subjects. Romantic love and Friendship. And lemme tell ya, Friendship has been harder to think about than RLove. (That's right, RLove)
Everytime I think on it, I just end up with "I haven't experienced it yet. May have come close at some point or THINK I have, but as of right now...nah."

In part, my parents are partly to blame for making me think on this (THE RLove; not the friendship). They think I'm totally in love because someone else thinks they're in love. My parents just put two and two together. Well, I'M NOT. But it's still a nice subject to jolt my brain into thinking. I've KNOWN I've never been in love. That's just [bleep]ing ridiculous. I'm 19, for goodness sakes.

Friendship, on the other hand has just like BLOOSSSHHHHHH head explosion. I feel like I only have at most, five people I can really consider friends. Of these five, I consider three people to be closest to me. And of these three, one I have a somewhat of a bias towards because...well it's like dancing over a friendship/more-than-friendship line. And dances back and fourth, on and off. Pisses mee offfff! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! ROAR! Not that I'm complaining though :D

Anyways. You might be asking as to why I've been pondering these things. It's because I've forced myself into wondering what a best friend is to me. In terms of a genuine best friend, I only have one. And then I have two very close friends, if that makes sense. I guess there's been a couple people in the last few months with whom I've totally questioned my friendship with. In the end, I've come up with...contradicting thoughts. I'm basically at a dead end. I guess I need more time with these two people to really see. Eh.

Let's go back to RLove, shall we? I've always thought of my views on it to be...well, at the least I've always thought of myself as being a fairly loyal person. So when I- ya know what. Forget this subject. lol It's pretty hot and my brains slowly shutting down. I'll JUST LEAVE IT AT THIS. THIS HORRIBLE VAGUE LAME ANSWER: It takes two people to love; it only takes one to obsess. BAJOOYAH!

Mmm. Wow this blog sucks uuber balls. If I thought about my old blogs...well in comparison to this they were awesome! GAH! LAMMMEEEEE...

Hmm. I should move on to a matter that's been pressing me. It's over...something I should feel guilty about. Rather, I DO! Just... I don't feel very guilty. Maybe it's like Agustin described as him putting himself in between two Kamehamehas. Hahah.And that is what justifies my actions and how I feel about them. Haha Scotty doesn't know...how random :P Maybe it's true that things never ended between me and her. It's...just such a huge mess. All of it. Now things have calmed down and the tigers have permission to be unleashed out of their cage. I still think that although he's being a tad of a jerk; he should really self-reflect. Things could've been different. Well, they also could be worse! lol.

MMmmm. I didn't really go over anything in this blog. How uuber gay. My brain sucks for crap now. TIME TO GO INTO MEDITATION. THIS HERMIT CRAB SHALL BE A HERMIT CRAB!

A hermit crab who gets to have a LITTLE bit of fun too ;]