Nice guys. And other things.

Ya know. After a discussion with Agustin today I had a few thoughts that I'd like to jot down before I forget them. Or really what I've had on my mind and just was too lazy to put down until now.

The concept of "Nice guys finish last". I've never seen something as so corrupt a thought as the general conception of the "nice guy." I think ideally at best a guy (for the sake of this blog we'll just use guy instead of humans in general" can feel or come across...I guess the evils of the world/the 7 deadly sins and choose to not want to corrupt anyone else of these evils. I don't think there's a single nice guy out there who isn't lustful or hateful; it's just he knows how to control these things well. The popular misconception being a deep down-to-earth guy who does somehow-truly-selfless deeds with and for no means of wanting to get into a girl's pants.

And another thing about "Nice guys' who finish last. Ya know why they finish last? It's not out of niceness persay or courtesy to a fellow competitor of a young maiden's heart. NOOOOOOOooooooo. It's just they lack something. Most of the time it's MANHOOD. And perhaps that's what niceness brings: a compassion for all beings with a sense of selflessness. AKA NO BALLS TO GAIN FOR YOURSELF. Sometimes it's not courage; it may be that you're just one boring motherfucker. Could be that you have no aspirations and opening doors for your friends is just one of those weird inept things you can't help but do. Actually this topic is too big really for me to want to explain it all...There's much more to it. I mean be honest. Girls don't want a nice guy. They want more than just a nice guy. It's such a easy thought. They may want someone book-smart or independent or determined.

Of course I speak out of personal experience and the experience of various acquaintances throughout high school and three dudes I happen to hang out with now. Chances are if you're reading this you've heard and have seen at least one of those three people. OR YOU MAY EVEN BE ONE OF THOSE THREE. I can obviously name a major flaw in the three guys that I would say would've been their downfall in their relationships and I can definitely choose a million in myself. Well not a million maybe a couple that I would say would be my drastic downfall. And maybe that's not just a major flaw but really out of lack of experience. OR BOTH. OR MAYBE JUST MAYBE this whole discussion has been retarded and I'm only writing this to give you something to flare up in your brain. Lol. And as for the three guys well I can't say I can truly name a major flaw. Or neither can I hold any judgment on their taste in people. I mean take a look at myself. HORRIBLE. But experience helps with that doesn't it? Plus I mean it's kinda hard to fight sexual tension when it's so easy to grasp at times. :P Haha I JEST.

If sexual pressure was the main aim of "nice guys" well...well actually it kinda is. I suppose it's anyone's aim to find someone they care and feel for enough to have that level of comfort to have sex with them.

Really my point is "nice guys finish last" is a flawed statement. It's just the same as saying "Hot girls finish first" or "Asian guys love rice". A very general statement which raelyl I should've stated at the beginning...

Man do I digress...I had so little sleep today. I was up until like three in the morning learning some penspinning moves. And then Ashley texts me. And then we talk for about half an hour. Man is she stressed. With a horrible papa and a quick-to-act angry bf and falling study habits which may not have been too great to begin with imo. She is not doing too well overall it seems. I was the third person she called that night; I hope I cheered her up. Blarghies. I wish the best for her; I really do hope things turn out for her soon. I sometimes wonder if she's just one of those people who have to get down to a near dangerously unhealthy mental state before they pick themselves up. I unno. :/

OH. Yesterday I was talking to Phu and I was talking about how grateful I am to my parents. How their years of trying to get a message to me and failing and their hard work I've finally come to aknowledge with my lame ass. Her reply? She said I was growing. And that it was sexy. Dumbfounded I thought to myself "Does Phu even know what the word sexy means?" Haha. Same ol' Phu :]

AND AGUSTIN. Is probably the absolute worst influence on me now. Which is ironic. I probably was a horrible influence on him academics-wise and now it's come back to bite me in the ass. And phu. You were right. AGUSTIN TRIED TO CONVINCE ME TO SKIP THE FIRST DAY OF CHEMISTRY TO MEET NHUNA. FOR PAPAYA SALAD. Good thing I didn't go with him. One) I needed the course ID to do online hw which was given out in class and two) I found out the cute girl I sat next to last term is still in the same class. And who I sat next to. Again. Which is pretty weird in retrospect but I mean I guess everyone just took their normal seats so MEH. BUT I'm sure Agustin eventually wouldn't have let me skip...AT LEAST I THINK I'M SURE YOU BASTARD AGUSTIN.

I should work out soon. AND STUDY SOON. AND DO HOMEWORK. Mmm. SO much to do...

Man In the last two years I've gotten to be sooo anti-social. Blarghies. Although I'm quite comfortable with this. Keenan suggests most people at ccc don't appear to be friendly is because most of them are on their way out; to get in and out as soon as possible. I think that's true of me.