PHU!

Yesterday I saw Phu! And Cat! At Mary-Ann's house! It was quite interesting. I think yesterday I talked to Phu for roughly 3-4 hours. This alone was probably more than I've talked to her in the last...year! Which is ridiculous.

So some background info! Catalina is my cousin. Probably my closest cousin. Scratch that. SHE IS my closest cousin. Phu is the friend I've known the longest out of anyone else. If I remember right I've known her for about 10 years; give or take a year...or two...

In hindsight, so much has happened to the little girl with enough girl-balls to slap a cocky stupid kid. Crazily enough, even back then I knew Phu would soar right past me. The thing is though, I don't think I should have made that observation so early. I think looking back on the last 4 or 5 years of my academic career, there's been a lot of regret. A LOT. But on the other hand there's been a lot more... perspective growth than I thought I'd ever receive. ANYWAYS. I've probably been close to an academic failure. Well maybe not a FAILURE. But at least not too pretty. And I think had I put more effort back then I'd at least be on the same footing with Phu. But it's like that quote Phu sent me not too long ago: "The best time to plant a tree is twenty years ago. The second best time is now." I must have said that I would "plant" a tree so many times now. Really most of it was a bunch of bullshit. By comparison, every time I said that was really just a step towards picking up a seed :P

Back to last night. Sorry for the random tangents.

We talked a lot about college. And food...BUT MAINLY ACADEMICS! Along with pooploads of jokes. It reminded me of Agustin and his visit to Lisa's on Thanksgiving.

TANGENT: Agustin went to Lisa's thanksgiving party and had this mini epiphany. He then told me the next day to start focusing on school and to get over Ashley. I called him an asshole and...I don't remember what happened after that...haha But I remember it wasn't like a huge insult or anything, just a surprise statement.

Something that I had gotten from my cousin Cat and Phu was basically that I was this guy who had a lot of potential...and at my current standpoint, I am not using any of it. At one point I was talking about a drug called hydroxyurea. And how fascinated I was with the way it's used to force viruses into basically commiting suicide. Phu gave me a face I had never seen before. It was a "I'm confused" and an "Unbelievable..." look. Phu basically couldn't believe that I was so excited and seemingly so passionate about something and yet...I'm doing nothing about this built-up excitement. That's when I thought to myself "What AM I doing?" I've basically been slacking off since...well let's say a long while. Can I pick myself up in time? I actually should start being more assertive and start donig some research on my major and really what I want to do in the future. It's a nice wake-up call, especially coming from Phu.

Even though she can be a tad crazy sometimes, her opinion does matter to me even though I tend to shrug it off. I MISS PHU! I need to see her more often; it seems like we're always laughing when we see each other. Usually we don't talk for a while and then we catch up and laugh and the process repeats. I don't think this is going to work anymore though. It's gotten to the point where we're too far away from each other. And we hardly call each other. Makes me sad to think about it...but then again I'll probaly see her a lot when I go to OSU. Just now it seems so.. I dunno the word...let's say bare bones.

It's funky; I remember when me and Phu referred to each other as best friends. I actually don't think we are. Maybe at one point we were best friends, maybe not. I mean chances are if Phu was in Portland alone and was in need of a ride I probably wouldn't be the first person she'd call. Or the second or the third. Of course that just may be out of convenience. I think I really do want to get to know Phu though. So one of my goals is to start talking to Phu more! And taking time to see her!

Ahh. So late to be planting a seed. Regret fills me. But I guess it's better late than never.